Monday, August 22, 2011

enter if you dare.


i have my own battles to fight.
i have insecurities to face.
i have loves to contend.
and i have goals to attain.

i don't burden you with that matters.
you shouldn't fell burdened.

it's my battles.
it's my insecurities.
it's my love.
it's my goals.

it would be nice if you would just listen.
it would be nicer if you could hold my hand and be beside me through it all.
but, what would be the best is for you to understand.
no special need for you to fight those battles for me.
you don't have to make it your insecurites.
don't love if you don't.
don't aim if it's not your goal.

i just need you to understand.

because that is who i am.
who i turned out to be after these twenty five years of life.

you don't have to like it.
hate it if you want.
judge.

in the end,
you are not the one who's gone through
and going through
it all.

go ahead.
judge.
hate.
be mad.

but most of all,
i dare you to understand.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

and i foresee the dark ahead if I stay.



 
"I wish I could lay down beside you when the day is done;
and wake up to your face against the morning sun,
but like everything I've ever known, you'll disappear one day,
so I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away."
 
~ b.carlile



You can't take away beautiful poetry from life. It speaks words the heart is screaming but lips can't form.



Thursday, May 12, 2011

Sunday, February 20, 2011

post marah sangat sebab tak boleh backhand kau depan depan.


Enough with your sob story, moron. Everybody else has their own problem too ya know. But I don't see them airing their dirty laundry in public. If you're gonna play your self pity card, Imma throw in my cancer cheat. Let's see how you top that.

Monday, February 7, 2011

It starts with an R. And ends with an e.


"So, you people are lawyers to be huh?" asked an army superior to my friends and I. We just smiled. He replied with a wide smirk while saying "Don't you guys go bakar orang pulak". And all of us laughed.

That, my friend, is the stereotyping for lawyers nowadays.

But, when one of my friend who did me wrong (very wrong) said to me, "...takdelah, I just takut je one day I nampak you in front of my house tengah bakar my house while laughing and screaming my name..." (just for the record, even if I am ever to do that pun, I won't be screaming your name baby), I can't help to think; Hey, I know I'm a lawyer (to be). But that does not mean I will go bakar orang or stuff whenever I'm mad.

And tonight, another friend came to me for a shoulder to cry on. There is something about people messing with my girls that gets me. So I ask her, "What do you want me to do?" ready to slay that pieceofcrap right then and there. 

"Bakar die?"
"Oh come on!"
"I don't know, what would you do if he does the same thing to you?" (Uh, for the record darling, been there, done that.)

And here's what I say,

"Honey, if I really want him to suffer, I wouldn't bakar him. I wouldn't even do the very thing he did to me. All of that would be too..hmm..whatchumacallit?..too humane..If I want him to suffer, I akan make sure that semua orang die sayang akan suffer before his eyes until they beg him to make it stop sampai die tak sanggup nak tengok and all the while, die pun suffer himself sampai eventually die mati...well, not mati..sampai I puas. =)".

That, people, is the art of payback.

Not that I would do any. I am a very patient person. It is even hard for me to hate people. But you might not want to cross my path and make me mad. If that happens, consider yourself lucky if the only payback you get from me is a mind game.

But hey, I'm harmless. Really.


Saturday, January 15, 2011

Hello, hello, baby you called I can't hear a thing.


You say tomahto, I say tomayto.
You say potahto, I say potayto.

Sure, different people have different style of doing things. And not everything appeals to everybody. For example, you might think it is okay to wear jaded ribbed torn-out jeans, but your mom might throw a hissy fit against it. (And I won't even dare to think what the fashionistas and stylistas might say about that. *coughsooutofseasoncough*)

However, there are certain things that need not the approval of your mother, any fashionistas or even stylistas, for it to be something that you should adhere to. These things, are universal. These things, it's general knowledge. And etiquette falls under general knowledge. Phone call etiquette to be exact.

Let it be known, people, that it is rude for you to be calling a person and not introduce yourself. Well, unless you are calling someone you know and who in turn, knows you.

Imagine a phone call that starts like this:
The phone rings and you answer.

You: Hello?
Caller: Who is this?

Now I don't know about you, but whenever that happens to me, I have an uncontrollable urge to reach into the phone and smack the back of the head of the caller so hard that he forgot his existence in this world for a while. Unfortunately, that is not possible. So I usually bombard the person calling with questions a normal Investigating Officer of a crime case would - to determine three things: the identity the person calling, where the heck did he get my number and, ultimately, to get it across to him that he shouldn't be asking who am I. And the conversation would not be pretty. Nu-uh.

Why, you ask, is it rude to be asking "Who is this?" to the person you are calling?
It would not be rude if you identify yourself before asking that. However, in the absence of the identification of the person calling, it is discourteous because of one simple reason: You are the one who is calling. You don't get to ask that. The person receiving the call has the authority to ask the question.

It is okay to not know the identity of the person you are calling, IF you are calling a land or general line. But not the same could be said for mobile lines - usually, although you might not know who the call-ee is, you must at least have his or her name, because most mobile number is a direct line, if not personal.

A polite phone etiquette - when calling an unknown person - should at least be like this:
Call-ee: Hello?
Caller: Hello, I am *insertnamehere*. May I speak to *insertnamehere*, please? or *insertnamehere*?

Do this with the most polite tone you could ever produce out of your voicebox. Tone is vital. Use a polite tone, you might even make someone's day. Otherwise, well...let's say that if the person you are calling is somewhat like me, it might ruin your day.

On the other hand, if you are the person receiving the call - the call-ee, it is considered highly rude if you don't answer the call with "Hello" but instead just keep your silence until the caller says"Hello".
Reason? I don't need to give you a reason for that! You would be stupid to not know the reason already. 

So, before you make that phone call, you might want to keep these things in mind. It might seem petty, but it is what separating the uneducated from the educated and the uncivilised from the civilised. It might even save you from unnecessary humiliation.

And I, I shall burn your hand, ear and mouth if you dare call me and ask who am I.

Because this is not either tomato or potato.

Just saying.